Stupid is as Stupid does Jeni Be XIF and CF
It's interesting how the world responds to you when you show up as you ...
For a long time in my life I was spoken to in a way that was not kind . I was called slow and stupid. My father believed that calling me this would create a world, where I would choose more. That this name calling would spur me on to out create that 'stupidness' as he called it.
In fact I became "brainwashed" by his label and began to wear it more and on it as my own .
You see when you get get called stupid on a daily basis you begin to own it, indoctrinate it, wear it , believe it and live your life by that.
In my 20's I began to out create that and reinvented me by 'proving' as much to myslef that I wasnt stupid. I began to retrain and study in university , choosing job and study , after job and study and recreated my life as UN-stupid .
Recently a similar ‘energetic label’ of STUPID has been projected at me .. I call it my Forrest Gump moment...
:D i realise it isn't about 'stupid' literally ( as in dumb, not knowing ) It's a label of being ' too silly, too much , totally out of the box, too different '
I find it fascinating that people only see what they want to see. That they have a definition of me, being something and cannot see beyond it . Usually that 'being something' is something they see as lesser, stupid , weird , un-containable, off the wall , outcast AND definitely different.
In the past ... I would to squish myself into a mould of what they accept of me and be that ... cut myself to shape that they could receive to make it ease for them , while at the same time make me so so wrong.
Now is any of that kind and honouring of me ?
No not at all !!!
So now i choose different … one of the first tools Gary Douglas gave me in a call was to
‘ Return to senders all of the projections, expectations, rejections separations and judgments of me, to me , about me and my body with consciousness.
Now, that doesn't get ‘rid ‘ of what what i am aware of prejected at me by them , it allows me to acknowledge the space beyond all that they are projecting at me .
and i ask to ‘turn it up’ ...be MORE of me …
Now it gets fun ...
as I continue to mutate , to Un-form myself, from what people expect more of their "buttons" are pressed, and therefor more of their reaction to me is heightened.
As Dain spoke of recently ,
... these people ... all they are reacting to , is actually themselves. That part of their being that they cannot allow themselves to be . They see in you what they cannot allow themselves to be . so they have to eliminate that 'stupid, silly, fun & miraculous' part of you from their world , and try and shut you down.
This is what I am inviting you to look at and to be , to embrace all that you are , and go beyond the symptoms, the labels, the indoctrination of this reality.
I have a telecall coming up
A different Perspective of disease, illness and symptoms is not just about your body, and illness ,
its about the disease of this reality to make people wrong., to keep you small ...
Its about the symptoms you use to STOP you being YOU ..
AND the labels and definition you use to hide you from this reality and YOU.
Is this something you would like to explore ? ... have a look on my website for free resources and info on Access X-Men
Looking forward to seeing you #accessxmen #xmenabilities
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