Confessions of a XIF ( X-Men Facilitator)
I grew up thinking I was a bit mad. I was told that often enough.
“Do you know you’re crazy thinking that …”
“What do you mean you see what’s going to happen? Don't be silly.”
“Goodness, your imagination?!” I was made wrong for a lot of what I was aware of.
With all those projections on me, I was told I was many things. Weird, a little crazy, stupid , and a nutter.
Kind friends I had, huh?
In fact, I wasn’t crazy. I was just aware in a different way.
I grew up in a time before "on the spectrum" was something society accepted. I was labeled as sensitive, cognitively slow and hyper.
The signs were all there. I never spoke before until I was 4 years old. I was hyper-sensitive to everyone around me (noise especially).
I was uncontainable; a moving, dancing, screaming, running, ball of energy. I hated to be touched.
When I did learn to speak, I would miss words.
Things move constantly around me when others said they were stationary; trees, statues, mannequins, paintings, the floor. I bumped into things that others couldn’t see.
I spoke to my sister in my head. It was all too slow and I wanted it to go faster.
I thought everyone functioned the same way.
It’s difficult to describe what my life was like as I was growing up and going to school. It wasn't easy. It wasn't fun.
In my mid 20's, I trained as a psychotherapist in mental health as self-preservation. Mainly to get clarity on finding a solution to the “mad emotions and thoughts” I felt bombarded with. It was in fact during that Psychiatric training that I was diagnosed as "on the spectrum" with autism, ADHD and OCD. These labels didn’t open up my world. These labels were at that time still a wrongness, a madness in the psychiatric hospital where I worked; especially with the staff around me. For 20 years I ignored this diagnosis, ignored and switched off my sensitivity to being awre of past, present and future, my aware body, and my uniquely intensely aware being. I continued to stop the world around me from moving and being in motion.
It took so much force to contain all of that ‘wrongness and keep it hidden.’ With all that force, eventually something had to give and I was diagnosed with various auto-immune disorders in my late 30’s that stopped me with an implosion of disability.
When the joyousness of the Access Bars, Access Body Processes and the Access classes showed up at my door, I knew I had found something that offered space to me in a new way. I began the journey of letting go of everything and everywhere I had stopped me; the journey of unfolding myself to opening up and allowing me to be me… even if it meant I was wrong in the eyes of others. Different. Strange. Weird. Unique. Evolution. Capacities. Strongness… Those were my new words.
Allowing myself to be everything I never allowed myself to be, can be intense! And, I say yes! I choose to embrace the unique. I choose to continue to unfold and not be bound by wrongness.
Thank you Access Consciousness and the X-Men body of work that has gifted me so much in this unfolding, knowing of me…
Today I stumbled on a video that reminded me of how I functioned before the assistance of the Access tools; which was most of my life. It was a reminder of how grateful I am to have tools that help me create what I need. Gone is the wrongness and in its space, an acknowledgment that I have always known this difference and this uniqueness is an evolution. :)
Here are 2 tools you can use daily to assist:
What if 98% of your thoughts, feelings and emotions are not yours? What if you are in fact a Big Psychic Sponge Bob that picks up on the thoughts, feelings and emotions of everyone around you?
What you can ask is “Who does this belong to?” send back everything that is not yours – with consciousness attached.
You might be amazed at what this tool can create in your life. Try it for 3 days and see what changes.
2. Being infinite space
Close your eyes and find the outside edges of you. Are you inside your body or is your body inside of you?
This is infinite being where you are the space that is everything. When you acknowledge that you can be more than anything, you cease to be at the effect of it. It means you can change it.
Being infinite space is a muscle you build. Like the exercise above, if you “feel stressed,” ask, “Who does this belong to?” and return to sender everything that is not yours and then expand out. Be infinite space. Bigger. Bigger. Bigger. Keep expanding until your body sighs and you sense more space.
These are two of the tools I have used to create more ease for me and my body. Try it and see what changes for you!
by Jeni Be CF
It’s a joy for us to announce the evolution of X-Men, with more X-Men Facilitators choosing to create for you worldwide . Check out all the X-Men Facilitators here
THE UNEXPECTED GIFTS OF OCD by Jeni Be CF
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder in this reality is a diagnosis that describes recurrent and persistent thought patterns, emotions and behaviours. These are ritualistic and cause enough distress that they interfere with daily life.
Obsessive (all consuming)
In this reality it can show up like the obsessive repetition of movement or thoughts or having to obsessively having all clear up all mess, or having to have everything so perfect, or having to line objects up…
So what does Access Consciousness X-Men say about OCD?
OCD is the ability to perceive, know, be, and receive everything around you from 800-8,000 miles in all directions.
Just stop there .. 800- 8000 miles in all directions ??
What does that look like ? Have a look at photo below ?
The distance from LONDON to EASTER Island in Chile is 8000 miles. ( see photo above)
Now visualize that in all directions .You are actually aware of what is a GREAT BIG circle around most of the globe. You are aware of every thought feeling & emotion in that zone. Is it no wonder that Gary Douglas and Dain Heer continually ask us to use the access tool WHO DOES IT BELONG TO? constantly for 3 days .
Do you know this tool?
Read more about Who Does It Belong To? on this PDF HERE or use the app we've developed on your phone HERE.
It is a simple way to really get aware of who and what you actually are aware of !!!
Access says OCD is actually OCC (obsessive compulsive creator), because you are constantly in obsessive-compulsive creation. If you don’t have enough going on in your life, you make yourself OCCC (obsessive compulsive creator of crap).
These are tremendous abilities, because you can accomplish so much in so little time. The thing about OCD is that you pick up everybody’s thoughts, feelings, and emotions. If you go into the wrongness of you, you become compulsive about that. For me it was washing and drying my hair 3 times a day , the only way i knew to get the ‘dirty feeling from my head’ . for others it can be lining things up or counting.
In actual fact , OCD is an ability. It is not only the ability to multitask, but also the ability to increase everything that’s going on. If you can tap into the thoughts, feelings, and emotions of people, could you also tap into their energies, and to what they know about completing or creating? That’s where you’ve got to start using that OCD capacity, rather than seeing it as a wrongness. How do you use this to create something greater for you?
Diva Diaz says When I need information, I go, “Who knows about this and can I have it please?” All of a sudden I have all kinds of information about something I know nothing about.
This is a just a brief glimpse into the world of OCD and X-Men. For more information you can join an X-Men intro class / telecall or live class or live stream class
What do you know about X-Men you may have never acknowledged?
For more information on this tool email Jeni here
thank you Jeni Be CF
Les cadeaux inattendus des TOC ~ Jeni Be CF
Les troubles obsessionnels compulsifs sont, dans cette réalité, un diagnostic décrivant les schémas, émotions et comportements récurrents et persistants. Ils sont comme des rituels et provoquent assez de désarroi pour interférer avec la vie de tous les jours.
Dans cette réalité, cela se manifeste comme la répétition obsessionnelle de mouvements ou de pensées, ou comme devoir absolument ranger tout désordre, ou faire en sorte que tout soit totalement parfait, ou devoir aligner les objets…
Que dit X-Men d’Access Consciousness à propos des TOC?
Un TOC est la capacité de percevoir, savoir, être et recevoir tout ce qui est autour de soi de 1’000–10'000 km à la ronde. Arrêtons-nous un instant… 1’000–10'000 km à la ronde??
A quoi ça ressemble? Regardez cette photo; elle montre le chemin le plus court entre Londres et l’Ile de Pâques.
La distance qui sépare Londres de l’Île de Pâques est de 13,623 km.
Maintenant visualisez ça dans toutes les directions. Vous êtes en conscience avec un grand cercle autour de la majeure partie du globe. Vous êtes conscient de chaque sentiment et émotion dans cette zone. On ne se demande plus pourquoi Gary Douglas et Dain Heer nous conseillent continuellement d’utiliser l’outil Access « A qui est-ce que cela appartient? » sans arrêt pendant 3 jours.
Vous connaissez cet outil?
Vous pouvez lire le PDF « A qui est-ce que cela appartient? » ou utiliser l’app que nous avons développée pour votre téléphone. C’est un moyen facile de prendre conscience de qui et de quoi on est réellement conscient!!!
Access enseigne que les gens avec des TOC sont en fait des COC (créateurs obsessionnels compulsifs), parce qu’on est en constante création obsessionnelle compulsive. Si vous n’avez pas assez dans votre vie, vous devenez un COCC (créateur obsessionnel compulsif de caca)…
Ce sont des capacités incroyables car vous pouvez accomplir tellement en si peu de temps. Le truc des TOC, c’est que vous recueillez les pensées, sentiments et émotions de tout le monde. Si vous allez dans le « faux » en vous, vous devenez compulsif. Pour moi, c’était me laver et me sécher les cheveux 3 fois par jour. Le seul moyen d’enlever le « sentiment de saleté » de ma tête. Pour d’autres, cela peut être aligner les objets ou compter.
En fait, un TOC est une capacité. Ce n’est pas seulement la capacité de faire plusieurs choses en même temps, mais aussi la capacité d’augmenter tout ce qui se passe. Si vous pouvez puiser dans les pensées, sentiments et émotions des autres, est-ce que vous pourriez aussi puiser dans leurs énergies, et dans ce qu’elles savent de comment accomplir et créer? C’est à ce moment-là que vous devez commencer à utiliser les capacités du TOC, plutôt que de le voir comme quelque chose de faux. Comment pouvez-vous utiliser cela pour créer quelque chose de plus grand pour vous?
Diva Diaz dit: « Quand j’ai besoin d’une information, je demande : “qui a cette information et puis-je l’avoir s’il vous plaît ? ” Et soudain, je reçois toutes sortes d’informations à propos de choses dont je ne connaissais rien. »
Ceci n’est qu’un bref aperçu du monde des TOC et des X-Men. Pour plus d’informations, vous pouvez vous inscrire à une introduction à la classe X-Men en présentiel, en téléconférence ou en streaming.
Qu’est-ce que vous savez de X-Men mais que vous n’avez jamais reconnu?
“WHO DOES IT BELONG TO?”
L’OUTIL EST: A QUI EST-CE QUE CELA APPARTIENT? POSEZ SEULEMENT LA QUESTION POUR CHAQUE PENSEE, SENTIMENT, EMOTION QUE VOUS AVEZ ET SI VOUS VOUS SENTEZ PLUS LEGER APRES, LA SEULE CHOSE QUE VOUS AVEZ A FAIRE, C’EST DE RENVOYER CA A L’EXPEDITEUR.
ASSEZ FACILE POUR VOUS? VOUS VOUDRIEZ TENTER L’EXPERIENCE? QU’EST-CE QUE VOUS AVEZ A PERDRE? TOUTES LES PENSEES, SENTIMENTS ET EMOTIONS QUI NE SONT PAS LES VOTRES!! ALORS, SI VOUS AVEZ LE COURAGE DE DECOUVRIR COMBIEN DE PENSEES, SENTIMENTS ET EMOTIONS VOUS AVEZ QUI NE SONT PAS A VOUS… RELEVEZ LE DEFI DES 3 JOURS!
PENDANT 3 JOURS, POUR CHAQUE PENSEE, SENTIMENT OU EMOTION QUE VOUS AVEZ,
POSEZ LA QUESTION « A QUI EST-CE QUE CELA APPARTIENT? »
ET RENVOYEZ LE TOUT D’OU CA VIENT – RENVOYEZ SEULEMENT, ET REGARDEZ CE QUI SE PRODUIT DANS VOTRE VIE!
Translated By Annabelle Perceval from the Access Conciousness® English Blog article here
Stupid is as Stupid does Jeni Be XIF and CF
It's interesting how the world responds to you when you show up as you ...
For a long time in my life I was spoken to in a way that was not kind . I was called slow and stupid. My father believed that calling me this would create a world, where I would choose more. That this name calling would spur me on to out create that 'stupidness' as he called it.
In fact I became "brainwashed" by his label and began to wear it more and on it as my own .
You see when you get get called stupid on a daily basis you begin to own it, indoctrinate it, wear it , believe it and live your life by that.
In my 20's I began to out create that and reinvented me by 'proving' as much to myslef that I wasnt stupid. I began to retrain and study in university , choosing job and study , after job and study and recreated my life as UN-stupid .
Recently a similar ‘energetic label’ of STUPID has been projected at me .. I call it my Forrest Gump moment...
:D i realise it isn't about 'stupid' literally ( as in dumb, not knowing ) It's a label of being ' too silly, too much , totally out of the box, too different '
I find it fascinating that people only see what they want to see. That they have a definition of me, being something and cannot see beyond it . Usually that 'being something' is something they see as lesser, stupid , weird , un-containable, off the wall , outcast AND definitely different.
In the past ... I would to squish myself into a mould of what they accept of me and be that ... cut myself to shape that they could receive to make it ease for them , while at the same time make me so so wrong.
Now is any of that kind and honouring of me ?
No not at all !!!
So now i choose different … one of the first tools Gary Douglas gave me in a call was to
‘ Return to senders all of the projections, expectations, rejections separations and judgments of me, to me , about me and my body with consciousness.
Now, that doesn't get ‘rid ‘ of what what i am aware of prejected at me by them , it allows me to acknowledge the space beyond all that they are projecting at me .
and i ask to ‘turn it up’ ...be MORE of me …
Now it gets fun ...
as I continue to mutate , to Un-form myself, from what people expect more of their "buttons" are pressed, and therefor more of their reaction to me is heightened.
As Dain spoke of recently ,
... these people ... all they are reacting to , is actually themselves. That part of their being that they cannot allow themselves to be . They see in you what they cannot allow themselves to be . so they have to eliminate that 'stupid, silly, fun & miraculous' part of you from their world , and try and shut you down.
This is what I am inviting you to look at and to be , to embrace all that you are , and go beyond the symptoms, the labels, the indoctrination of this reality.
I have a telecall coming up
A different Perspective of disease, illness and symptoms is not just about your body, and illness ,
its about the disease of this reality to make people wrong., to keep you small ...
Its about the symptoms you use to STOP you being YOU ..
AND the labels and definition you use to hide you from this reality and YOU.
Is this something you would like to explore ? ... have a look on my website for free resources and info on Access X-Men
Looking forward to seeing you #accessxmen #xmenabilities
Love this from the access body team
How much have you done to your body because somebody said it would create a result?
How many diets, foods, exercise routines, herbs, and fads, have you tried because somebody said?
You and your body are the only two that know what will work for your body. Other people can give you information, but you and your body actually do know what it is going to take to create the result you are looking for.
Start by asking questions for everything that concerns your body...
Body what would you like to eat?
Body what would you like to wear?
Body what would you like to buy at the store?
What movement would you like to do for fun?
When you are a little kid you knew what you wanted to eat, you knew what you wanted to drink, you knew when you wanted to sleep. What if you could tap back into that knowing?
This is where you start to develop a relationship with your body by asking questions for everything that concerns it. If you have back pain, “Hey body, what is it going to take to change this?”
Is your body screaming loud and clear about what it would like and are you refusing to listen?
Ask your body. Your body has the answers if you start asking.
Be gentle with yourself when you are playing with these new tools and asking your body questions. It's like working a muscle that hasn't been used in awhile. Be patient, and your awareness and ease with listening to your body with will continue to grow and grow!
Welcome to the world of Jeni BE