Wrong? or Strong? by Jeni Be CF
During my 20's and 30's I struggled with illness , with pain. I spent much of my time in the doctors surgery and hospitals getting tests. The doctors were very helpful but could find nothing 'conceivably wrong' that they could fix. I was labelled depressed ,anxious , sensitive and get this " allergic to the 21st century " .. ( yes really!!!)
Ever seeking change, I studied alternative therapies, counselling and became a psychotherapist.
In essence I was looking at ways to change me with the labels and disability I had been given. Was it any wonder that I couldn't change that which was someone else's label of what was wrong with me?
Part of the key in choosing something different came when I began to ask questions and look at other possibilities. I saw a Tour of a Consciousness video with Dain Heer asking "what if every wrongness is actually a strongness? "
And with every 'pain' I asked " what is the strongness here I am not aware of?"
That tool itself changed the 'cluster migraines' I had been suffering from . It allowed me to go out side 'the pain' and not be encompassed by it. Gifting that , minutes of change , before I asked the question again allowed me the relief to choose other possibilities.
Another tool that blew apart my world of wrongness , was the ' tool who does it belong to?
In acknowledging and continuing to acknowledge my ever expanding awareness. I began to become clearer with what in the world around me that, actually was not mine. There was much i 'resonated' with , thoughts feelings emotions, that had been labelled with as too sensitive.
In acknowledging what was not mine , I unpacked one if the biggest gifts ever, my awareness.
Awareness not just of thoughts , feelings, emotions, sensations of this others in this world we live in but the awareness of the full extent of the energetic download of information. In the past I have been so aware of this that I believed it must be mine.
And therefore 'wore' the pain on my body like my own.
The Access X-Men classes have gifted me the tools and acknowledgment of how I function in this world . How I am aware of others, and how I can be at ease with this. It's not sensitivity , it's not hyper acuteness , it's not dysfunction , it's not a wrongness . It's AWARENESS and it's a CAPACITY!
Would you like to discover your own capacities? Your own awarenesses about you?
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