Let me not stop here. Let me go with the energetic flow, to expand and be more than I have ever been.
Its beat is not linear but an ebb and a flow. A deep dive into many energies, a submission, a submersion and letting go. Being present through, and beyond all, I have defined as me. I am like a jellyfish swimming in the sea. I perceive the vastness of that oceanic space opening up like my being, expanding, and letting go any contraction, allowing, it to soften, to be, and then using this to propel me beyond all that I have journeyed before. The space of me has movement, has joy and vastness. This symphony dive is exploring, embracing the deep dark oceans of me, expanding out to the deep, vast universal space of me, the uniqueness of me, the beauty of me. It vibrates through every molecule of my being, it pulses though all of my universes. I hear the Symphony universe, "WHAT IS YOUR ASK?" If you could have anything out of this, what would it be? I perceive some whisp of energy. Just as swiftly, a vortex begins and flows through my body. My mind tries to tighten it, for a fraction of a split second, then I undefine it, I let it go. Bliss, a melting moment then I journey again moving though this space of newness. This is just a fragment of the journey, of the symphony thrum in my world. As the class draws nearer, the thrum, the march of a godzillon energies, the symphony becomes louder, and it becomes more clear what we can create together as the orchestra of possibilities. Symphony is not a journey of the one; symphony is a journey of ONENESS.
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 It Was A Session That Changed My World
It's a big statement, right? It's something I have become accustomed to saying about access classes “the latest course on that subject of relationships, bodies, awareness, blah, blah, blah, changed my world". It’s something I embrace. And, yet, THIS one session was different. I have always been someone that asks or searches for a different way to be me—seeking a softer, more easeful way in the world. Maybe because as a kid I always seemed to feel like a fish out of water. The searching has been a way to find out how I can be more me, in an "out of water world". With every Access Consciousness class, there is a gift of information to be —a download of insights to help me pertain who I am, and how I am functioning in the world. What can crop up are the hidden facets of me; each aspect begins to shines differently, as I acknowledge it and allow myself to be that. I start to re-member me, and I begin to get a glimpse of the changes, their gift and contribution, as I unfold. Three days of unwinding, unfolding and recalling of a different way I can be. And then, I had this session… wow, this session! What was it? It was a group session with Dr. Dain Heer called the BIG ESB. ESB stands for the Energetic Synthesis of Being - a journey with energy into the spaces and places that I have no words for. Someone else would see the session from the outside like any other. It was a potent energetic dive from Dr Dain Heer into the stop points, the limitations and the closed doors, in which we all live. Dain has a magic way of being present with all of this and opening up this space, and doors to other possibilities. This journey can sound somewhat airy-fairy when it is truly a gift to experience. So, this session began and evolved, and it was fun and magic, and I loved it. I was facing the limitations, laughing and being present with it all. It felt so good. I felt so good. Such spaciousness. And this continued long after the session. That night was a weird one; I had very vivid dreams and awakened in the morning as a different me. Ha, ha, it was, and is, what I am asking for. Such a change! I never believed it was possible after only one session. I was inside out, upside down, back to front, me. While this seems crazy for some to embrace this, for me it is the gift of choosing more. Like a baby chick breaking out of a shell, it always opens up my world. It can just be a little unconformable for a short time. Fighting these changes limits me and my world, while embracing and being with it opens up more doors. Day 1 after the session was full of this space and awareness of something different showing up. Sometimes it flowed and was easy to be with, other times it felt like I was juxtaposition with myself. I used the access tools and asked questions to be with all of this unravelling. The question of "what else can I be that I have never allowed myself to be?" I had no answers, and I certainly was not looking for any! I went to bed early that night, tired and ready for sleep. As soon as my head hit the pillow, energy flowed through me even more. What began to surface was something else. I had no words for this. I again slept restlessly, awakening at 3.30am with a mind race that I hadn't had in years. Let me explain more. Before Access Consciousness, I used to awaken at this time and have my mind run through everything that I did wrong that day, everything that I needed to change to fit in. I would scan through in my mind every scenario possible so I would know how to react to it. It was an EXHAUSTING way to live my life. In Access terms it’s what we call Computational reality—equating, computing; the mind like a machine trying to make everything into parts, smaller, to make me fit into the world. My mind was rallying against the change! This is what I love about Access; the exploration and the facts that the mind is such a limitation on the way we BE! Being is not able to be defined. You cannot compute Being. The mind trying to put form and structure to this flags up its limitations. As Gary Douglas, so aptly puts it, " the mind is a dangerous thing, waste it." This "mind F£$k" continued for 2-3 hours or more; my mind was trying to get a handle on what was occurring. Well, I would love to say I changed it instantly ( chuckles). I did not! What did open up was the gift of using the Access tools. I asked questions, I acknowledged, and I continued to choose something different each time, even if it did mean I went on a mind ramble for a part of that! It's all ok! One of the questions that continued to pop was from Gary Douglas, "Who can I become if I stop pretending that I am not?" This question stopped the mind race and began to open up another door of possibilities. This ebbing and flowing of a question, fight, question, a choice, kept going until dawn broke and I fell into a deep sleep. As day two after the session broke, and I awakened, I knew something had changed. The to-ing and fro-ing of allowing myself to be with the energies created a break in the MIND’s armour, opening up to someone new; "Who am I today and what grand, glorious and mysterious adventures can I be today? " This one session by no means is over; there is a thrum in my world like a gallop of horses, driving me towards something so beautiful. My ask is, what contribution can I be for you? Where is your life is stuck? Where is it you are NOT you? What would you like to add to your life to create more? The gift of energetic sessions knows no bounds. I have a telecall coming up that is a group exploration, called "Energetics of Awareness". Now in its 6th series, it is a space to journey into these limiting points and embrace the change. If this is something you would like to adventure into with me and others, then you can choose here: https://www.jenibe.com/eoa YES, one session can change a LOT!   Les cadeaux inattendus des TOC ~ Jeni Be
Les troubles obsessionnels compulsifs sont, dans cette réalité, un diagnostic décrivant les schémas, émotions et comportements récurrents et persistants. Ils sont comme des rituels et provoquent assez de désarroi pour interférer avec la vie de tous les jours. Troubles (désordre) Obsessionnels (dévorant) Compulsifs (incontrôlable) Dans cette réalité, cela se manifeste comme la répétition obsessionnelle de mouvements ou de pensées, ou comme devoir absolument ranger tout désordre, ou faire en sorte que tout soit totalement parfait, ou devoir aligner les objets… Que dit X-Men d’Access Consciousness à propos des TOC? Un TOC est la capacité de percevoir, savoir, être et recevoir tout ce qui est autour de soi de 1’000–10'000 km à la ronde. Arrêtons-nous un instant… 1’000–10'000 km à la ronde?? A quoi ça ressemble? Regardez cette photo; elle montre le chemin le plus court entre Londres et l’Ile de Pâques. La distance qui sépare Londres de l’Île de Pâques est de 13,623 km. Maintenant visualisez ça dans toutes les directions. Vous êtes en conscience avec un grand cercle autour de la majeure partie du globe. Vous êtes conscient de chaque sentiment et émotion dans cette zone. On ne se demande plus pourquoi Gary Douglas et Dain Heer nous conseillent continuellement d’utiliser l’outil Access « A qui est-ce que cela appartient? » sans arrêt pendant 3 jours. Vous connaissez cet outil? Vous pouvez lire le PDF « A qui est-ce que cela appartient? » ou utiliser l’app que nous avons développée pour votre téléphone. C’est un moyen facile de prendre conscience de qui et de quoi on est réellement conscient!!! Access enseigne que les gens avec des TOC sont en fait des COC (créateurs obsessionnels compulsifs), parce qu’on est en constante création obsessionnelle compulsive. Si vous n’avez pas assez dans votre vie, vous devenez un COCC (créateur obsessionnel compulsif de caca)… Ce sont des capacités incroyables car vous pouvez accomplir tellement en si peu de temps. Le truc des TOC, c’est que vous recueillez les pensées, sentiments et émotions de tout le monde. Si vous allez dans le « faux » en vous, vous devenez compulsif. Pour moi, c’était me laver et me sécher les cheveux 3 fois par jour. Le seul moyen d’enlever le « sentiment de saleté » de ma tête. Pour d’autres, cela peut être aligner les objets ou compter. En fait, un TOC est une capacité. Ce n’est pas seulement la capacité de faire plusieurs choses en même temps, mais aussi la capacité d’augmenter tout ce qui se passe. Si vous pouvez puiser dans les pensées, sentiments et émotions des autres, est-ce que vous pourriez aussi puiser dans leurs énergies, et dans ce qu’elles savent de comment accomplir et créer? C’est à ce moment-là que vous devez commencer à utiliser les capacités du TOC, plutôt que de le voir comme quelque chose de faux. Comment pouvez-vous utiliser cela pour créer quelque chose de plus grand pour vous? Diva Diaz dit: « Quand j’ai besoin d’une information, je demande : “qui a cette information et puis-je l’avoir s’il vous plaît ? ” Et soudain, je reçois toutes sortes d’informations à propos de choses dont je ne connaissais rien. » Ceci n’est qu’un bref aperçu du monde des TOC et des X-Men. Pour plus d’informations, vous pouvez vous inscrire à une introduction à la classe X-Men en présentiel, en téléconférence ou en streaming. Qu’est-ce que vous savez de X-Men mais que vous n’avez jamais reconnu? “WHO DOES IT BELONG TO?” L’OUTIL EST: A QUI EST-CE QUE CELA APPARTIENT? POSEZ SEULEMENT LA QUESTION POUR CHAQUE PENSEE, SENTIMENT, EMOTION QUE VOUS AVEZ ET SI VOUS VOUS SENTEZ PLUS LEGER APRES, LA SEULE CHOSE QUE VOUS AVEZ A FAIRE, C’EST DE RENVOYER CA A L’EXPEDITEUR. ASSEZ FACILE POUR VOUS? VOUS VOUDRIEZ TENTER L’EXPERIENCE? QU’EST-CE QUE VOUS AVEZ A PERDRE? TOUTES LES PENSEES, SENTIMENTS ET EMOTIONS QUI NE SONT PAS LES VOTRES!! ALORS, SI VOUS AVEZ LE COURAGE DE DECOUVRIR COMBIEN DE PENSEES, SENTIMENTS ET EMOTIONS VOUS AVEZ QUI NE SONT PAS A VOUS… RELEVEZ LE DEFI DES 3 JOURS! LE DEFI PENDANT 3 JOURS, POUR CHAQUE PENSEE, SENTIMENT OU EMOTION QUE VOUS AVEZ, POSEZ LA QUESTION « A QUI EST-CE QUE CELA APPARTIENT? » ET RENVOYEZ LE TOUT D’OU CA VIENT – RENVOYEZ SEULEMENT, ET REGARDEZ CE QUI SE PRODUIT DANS VOTRE VIE! Translated By Annabelle Perceval from the Access Conciousness® English Blog article here  A Different View on Death and Dying by Jeni Be I found this today .. I wrote it 3 years ago and never posted it...
Today is the anniversary of my Fathers death .. one year on… In these circumstances tears are normal, and yes I have cried a lot today. My body would love a big hug from him! A squidgy Daddys & little girl hug that I & my body misses. A hug that says it will be all right I am here…Its ok, me and your mum have you. It is easy to go into grief and cry and sob.. and remember what I and my body has ‘lost'. and ….with the gift of access tools, there is an allowance and space of more, much more to be available to me … yes, there are other possibilities !!! What is it with Grief? what Possibilities are they you might ask... Part of this is so totally beyond words, its energies we shut ourselves down from . Would you allow me to explore that with you ? Well…When My Dad was still "alive" he would dismiss any of this choice beyond death as “Mumbo Jumbo”. He firmly believed, “ when you're Dead! ...end of !..you are Dead’. It was a conversation he had many walls up against and wouldn’t receive the discussion of anything beyond his point of view. “I am a man of science” he would say. As if that determined it all. I on the other hand always was asking about the beyond, searching and seeking for whoever could shine a light on what I knew was possible, that I did not know yet how to word. My journey is never-ending like a quest for more I continue to search to ask and to choose. I ask what is lighter beyond what we are taught told and the defined and confined view on death. When he was dying of terminal heart failure, we had a few deep discussions of possibilities beyond the normal way of thinking. We spoke of Columbus and his sailing to the ‘edge of the world” the fact that many never believed there were possibilities beyond flat earth. We spoke about religion and the fixed beliefs that brings up, the power of where only a certain few can “talk to the Deceased’… He still saw anything beyond his fixed point of view as 'mumbo jumbo’. The fear that death brings up is strange to me as I see it so much as the birth of something else. I held his hand, a year ago when he was taking the last breath in his body, there was a fear there and also something else ...a new energy , an adventure of possibilities. As gave him some symphony of possibilities energies, there was a sharp breath and a sigh and he left his body. With tears running down my face I journeyed with him into a space of all infiniteness … the fear that he had, was gone, he beamed a smile and a golden glow that I have no words for… and he dispersed into a space that was so vast, I could not follow. His ‘dead” body called me. I put my hands on it and gifted the processes I knew Gary Douglas and Dain Heer would gift. My own body howling and racking with sobs … I honoured and was grateful for all his body had given me, given him and been for all of the family. For truth, if it wasn’t for his body, my body would not be here :) For 3 weeks after he died his body asked me to gift and receive energies with it. This was something that truly amazed me, this consciousness of the body, the ongoing gift of the body. I am so grateful, honoured and privileged to receive this gift of wonderment. When both of my parents died, we continued to chat. Some may see this as my own 'mind creation'. I percieve somethng so differnt. We would chat and clear points of view, to let go of all the good, the bad, and the ugly, EVERYTHING we created together in any life. We asked for all possibilities to be opened up beyond everything we have ever been, done and defined ourselves as.. all of us to be open to us creating now and for the future... I get that what we will choose to be now … will have a ripple effect on our “lives” in 5, 50, 500 years!!! (and more) As I sit here and write to you I am aware of my mum my dad beside me. I don’t “see them” I perceive them. And with that perceiving, there is the difference. Perceive is all-encompassing without judgment of who or what they are and be. Without definition. I do not box them as they were from any life. I allow them to be whatever they choose to be, and they in turn allow me. That perception brings a vastness of all-knowing, of who they are as beings (only on that in that 10 seconds we all change so much when we allow it). It brings in space beyond all judgment in this life, ( or any other life), and that my friends, is indescribable in words. This is such a gift. Thank you for the tools of Access Consciousness. So as I leave you with that, can I ask you a question... Who or what is in your psychic space? What can you receive from them that you are not allowing yourself to? Thanks, Mum and Dad for all your energetic hugs that you gift me. I am so grateful that I and my body can receive x Jeni Be CF  Choosing to LIVE my Life by Jeni Be How do you live your life? By enjoying every moment?
Or by focusing on what is not working for you? I lived a lot of my life focused on what was not right about my life and what I had to fix to make it better: “If I can find the wrong, I can eliminate it and make it right.” So what was wrong in my life?
I was not happy about any aspect of my life. And while I was all about fighting the wrong in my life, was not able to celebrate what I did have. Trying to identify all my problems to fix them didn’t work or make life better. All it did was make me focus on the wrong even more. I became so diminished in my life that I ended up in a wheelchair. My body was not happy with me, I was not happy with me. I hated my life and I disregarded so much of me that I was at rock bottom. I realized that I could continue increasing the judgments against me, or I could do something very different and treat myself and my life with more kindness. I started with these 5 steps: 1: Get a session of “Access Bars” I’ve tried so many treatments and processes in 40 years—so, so many! Access Bars is a gentle body process that stops the mind whirling. It dynamically nurtures the body, which we so rarely allow. If you are out of practice with being kind to you or your body, Access Bars is a great place to start, because all you have to do is lie down and receive it. 2: Be kind to you When you give yourself a hard time, what does that create for you? We’ll easily treat or talk to ourselves far more harshly than we’d ever do to another—isn’t that strange? Imagine treating you with nurturing guidance and kindness as you change things in your life. What would change if you were kind to you, and not critical? 3: Take off your judgement glasses Everyone has a different perspective on . Test it out: ask someone what color you are wearing today. Some might say blue, navy, indigo, blue/purple. Why is that? We see things in the world through our own well-worn lenses. What if no perspective was right, wrong, or true, just interesting? Without judgments, even your own points of view are just interesting, and you do not have to let them stop or limit you. 4: Get clear on what you’ve been choosing What are your judgments and “rules” about how you should be? What is it that you choose every day that keeps you in the same old repetitive behaviors and reactions? Be vulnerable and honest with you, and acknowledge what you’ve been choosing and thinking that isn’t working for you. And don’t judge! Be willing to see what you’ve been choosing, without judging any of it, and the door will open for you to choose something different. 5: Focus on the things that work out well Are you grateful for what does work in your life? We can easily dismiss these things when life isn’t perfect. But when you acknowledge and celebrate what does work—yes, — that’s an invitation for more of it to come. When something doesn’t work, don’t judge it, ask, “What else is possible?” In the bigger picture of your life, what truly matters: Judging you? Or celebrating you and acknowledging you can choose again? What you focus on, grows. The power and choice are yours. With these steps, my life and living opened up dynamically. When I gave up trying to fix the wrongs and celebrated me instead, I giggled more, laughed more, chose things that made me happy. I also lost things: I lost a wheelchair (yay!) and I lost weight. As I got happy and stopped moaning about my life, I even lost some toxic friendships. Six years on, I continue to use these steps. I am happier, healthier, and more vibrant in my life. Gone is the anxiety, the depression. The wrongness and judgments of me are easier to change and much less than they’ve ever been. The biggest change is with me. My life has a new lease of joy and abundance—the kindness and celebration available grows each day. I no longer wonder what is wrong, I wonder what else is possible now? ----------------- Jeni Be Jeni Be is an Access Consciousness® Certified Facilitator and a Psychotherapist who has been working with clients for over 27 years. Before "on the spectrum" was commonly used, Jeni was labelled as sensitive,cognitively slow, and hyper—or to put it another way—different. Jeni’s life blossomed and thrived when she discovered Access X-Men tools, which taught a different way to be with all the world, celebrating difference without definition, limitation, rightness or wrongness. She now facilitates classes and clients worldwide, inviting others to a world of joy and excitement in life and living. www.jenibe.com  When I look back 6 years ago my life was so different ... I was contained by an illness that I allowed to rule me. I had lost my way with me. The labels and diagnosis of the autoimmune disease, that I chose, did not allow me to question anything of it. I believed the medics knew everything I had no choice but to be enslaved by the illness. I bought the package of DISEASE and DIAGNOSIS hook line and sinker. I sunk deep in depression and suicidal thoughts. Shrinking from the pain I thought if I made myself small enough I would be free from it. Then along came access bars, MTVSS and 3 day Body class with Shannon O'Hara and my first ever recordings of an X-Men class with Dain Heer Houston Feb 2013, that blew my mind. These were just 2 of the 'key facilitators' that showed me a way with themselves, and the world in the very beginning that enthralled me, creating a dance in my world, their difference resonated with me. Did I have the audacity to even believe I could be an X-Men? There was much in the X-Men class that mirrored my perception of the world around me, much that resonated with the fight against this reality I had always been. Could I ever be that different that magical? My journey has continued daily, hourly, in 10-second increments. seeking out Diva Diaz attending 2 X-men classes in 3 months, I asked to intern with her. Working with learning so much about Díva Diaz her different X way and uniqueness. I am so very grateful for her & the gift of her ongoing journey for 9 years with X-Men. Mainly the key points were, asking questions to me, getting out of conclusion, definition, heaviness and smallness. My tenacity of consciousness, always winning through. Asking questions always asking and striving for more, knowing one day I would love to facilitate these X-Men classes. The years roll on and we begin to give birth to a worldwide exploration of Access X-Men and add new Speciality facilitators. I took my first telecall on X-Men nearly 3 years ago! Now we have over 13 facilitators worldwide (www.accesconsciousness.com/xmen) My journey is always to be me ...' an undiscovered possibly'. There is no end ( would an infinite being have an end?) The diagnosis has never changed, I will always be labelled by the medical professions, with this illness. (please note i do not see that is wrong) . That is THEIR way of seeing me. With that I do not choose to be enslaved by it, rather I have worked with all the symptoms and continue to ask to choose and create my life in a different way! Working with rather than against! What else is possible to journey with the Undiscovered Possibility with you? If you would like to Journey with us ( and the ones already signed up ) them please choose ... we would love to have you the ones that are always asking for more !!! “The source of any change and possibility lies in the awareness of the limitations you have chosen.” Gary Douglas The tenacity of Consciousness !! The Undiscovered Possibility if this is for you check it out here www.jenibe.com/undiscovered is 6 part telecall that is the pre reqequite ( or foundation if you have it) for the 2 Day class live and LIVE streamed Here www.jenibe.com/verschillend #unique #differentnotwrong #flawsome#accessxmen #speciality #adventure #journey#wonderland Listen to some testimonials here |
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